Application COMPLETE!

I've been working on essays and application stuff since right after I finished my previous post.  And I am happy to say that I am finally DONE!!!!!  I submitted my application at 11:35PM.

Go on, please compliment me.  Flourish me with your flattery.  Shower me in your undying admiration.  Moreover, if you're from the Willamette admissions office, please admit me ^w^

Lol, I feel pretty proud of myself right now.  I honestly wasn't sure whether or not I'd be able to get it done.  After I finished my previous post, I was considering settling to apply for Willamette's Early Action II instead.  Then I thought, "Bah, I don't settle!  I refuse to settle for anything!"  That was actually what motivated me to get everything done, haha.

Man, I know it's only been a few hours, but it feels like I've spent an eternity working on those essays.  The first one (about my gap year, it's required that you put something down for that) was mostly done, but needed to be tweaked a little.  I also needed to come up with a conclusion.  My regular college essay was a mess.  I had no intro or concluding paragraph and was digressing and jumping all over the place, so no surprise that it was almost 800 words -_-"  I had to rewrite the entire thing.  I only kept maybe 7 sentences from the original essay.

Around 9:30PM I was mostly done, but I just couldn't stop reading the essays.  Was I sure there were no gramatical errors?  There was no time to show it to anyone.  Besides, it was kind of personal.  Then I thought, "OMG what if my essay really sucks!?  Maybe this was a bad idea.  Maybe I should have chosen a different topic altogether!"  But there wasn't any time for that, so I decided that because the subject might actually suck, it was all the more important that the grammar was correct, the essay flowed nicely, and the conclusion was super powerful and earth-shattering!  Despite spending another hour trying to achieve that, I only changed a couple of things.

I'm actually still a little worried about my essay.  I chose the "significant experience" prompt.  My essay topic was on the very thin line of "sob story" and "success story," which was why it took me so long to write.  Every word I chose could push my essay in one direction or the other, so I really had to be careful what I wrote.  I'm hoping that my college essay has the triumphant feel I was aiming for and not a "admit me because you pity me" vibe.  (There's nothing worse than being pitied.)  And if a college doesn't admit me based on my essay, goddamn it it's my significant experience and who are they to say what is and isn't significant!?  That's right, go f#$% yourself!  (I'm trying to boost my confidence in my essay.)

Anyway, after spending an hour obsessing over my essay, I spent the next hour obsessing over my college application.  I'm not sure if anyone else has this, but I get really nervous before submitting my application.  For instance, I'm legally swearing that everything is true.  What if I accidently messed up on something?  That means *eep!* my admission could be revoked!  And after I submit it to one college, I have to submit it to them all because I can't change anything, which only intensifies the above fear.  And then I'm scared that I'll submit the wrong thing.  Like, what if I attach my evil squirrel story instead of my college essay?  So because of the above fears, I keep obsessively clicking on the "Print Preview" button.  And after a while I know everything's correct and stuff, but I can't stop thinking, "What if it's not?"  In conclusion, I changed two things and spent the rest of the hour clicking "Print Preview."    -_-"

But hey, now I'm DONE!  That's right, no more college stuff!  Okay, okay, I still have my supplemental essays to write.  And I still have to complete the applications for colleges that don't use the Common App.  But the hardest part is over now :)  My regular college essays are done.  As for the colleges who don't use the Common App, I can just copy my information from the Common App onto their personal application.  Trust me, after spending an hour staring at that thing like my life depending on it, I'm fairly certain there's no mistakes.

I'm totally basking in my self-glory ^^  Man, this is so much better than the failure feeling I got when I submitted my first application last year.  I may procrastinate, but I do know how to get things done :)  I think I deserve kudos for this!  Scratch that; I think this is worthy of admission to Willamette!  Haha...wish me luck!