Here We Go Again -_-"

It's that time of the year again.  You know, that horrible time of the year when we're all driven by terror.  No, it's not Halloween.

Welcome again, everyone, to...THE COLLEGE APPLICATION SEASON *da da DUM*.

I thought things would be easier this year.  Yes, and no.  I decided to apply Early Admission (non-binding) to a lot of my colleges.  Also, I'm applying to 19 colleges as to avoid what happened last time.

Upside: I have increased chances of getting in to a good college.  Also, I'll find out whether or not I got accepted by December-February for a quite a few ^^

Downside: I have so many things to do I feel like I'm loosing my mind.

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So in conclusion, I don't get ANYTHING done because I'm too busy thinking of all the things that NEED to be done.  Like I already have problems focusing, you know?  Now I really can't think!

Also, based on Ex-BF's encouragement, I decided to apply to Chapman University's studio art program.  Which requires an art portfolio.  And...oh yeah...I can't draw -_-"  Seriously, I have no idea why I'm even putting myself through this.  I'm always saying how art is probably the most useless major under the sun.  Now I'm applying to double major in philosophy and studio art.  I am currently questioning my sanity.

I guess it's just the difference between passion and practicality.  I've spent so long trying to impress everyone that it feels like I've lost sight of what I want.  Drawing is something I loved but stopped doing in high school due to academic responsibilities.  Now I kinda feel like, "F*** you, colleges!  I spent years trying to impress you guys, and you rejected me?"  Which makes makes me want to pursue something meaningless that I enjoy instead of something practical that will impress future employers.  Unfortunately, majoring in something like art is likely to not be the best decision in the long run, so it seems like a good idea to double major.

Philosophy currently seems like a good idea because (1) it seems like it would compliment art well, and (2) it opens up numerous doors for graduate school (such as business, law, etc.)

So, if I majored in both philosophy and art, I could not only pursue something I love but I could also go to law school and be a lawyer.  Which is AWE-SOME :)  Lawyers are prestigious and make lots of mullah.  Oh yeah, and they're powerful.  To me, that seems like a great reason to choose any job, lol.